Monday, June 30, 2008
Sometimes I wonder
I wonder if he'll like chocolate or vanilla ice cream better.
I wonder if I'll EVER get the tune to "You Are My Sunshine" out of my head.
I wonder if he'll be a postman, politician, or pilot.
I wonder how I ever lived before he came along.
I wonder if he'll play left field or first base.
I wonder when he'll say "I love you."
I wonder what his favorite book will be.
I wonder if I could rub the skin on his forehead away from kissing it so much.
I wonder if how my heart will ever make room for his brothers and sisters.
I wonder if I'll EVER get the tune to "You Are My Sunshine" out of my head.
I wonder if he'll be a postman, politician, or pilot.
I wonder how I ever lived before he came along.
I wonder if he'll play left field or first base.
I wonder when he'll say "I love you."
I wonder what his favorite book will be.
I wonder if I could rub the skin on his forehead away from kissing it so much.
I wonder if how my heart will ever make room for his brothers and sisters.
The strap works...
Saturday, June 28, 2008
Three Months!
Happy Three Months Connor!
Tuesday, June 24, 2008
Old Friends
Last night was the best! Our good friends, Eric and Erin (whom recently moved to the far-away land of Arizona), came for a visit. They came over around 4:00 to hang out and FINALLY meet Connor. Jason got home and we grilled out. It was so fun to sit around and hang out like old times. After a lovely dinner of hamburgers, hot dogs, baked beans, and macaroni and cheese, we headed off for Coldstone Creamery with our coupon for a family of four. We enjoyed some ice cream then headed home. Finally, we forced Eric to hold Connor. Here is the visual proof. He's not exactly a "baby person" (as in, I don't think he's EVER held one), so convincing him he doesn't need to be "terrified" (his word, not mine) of Connor was kind of challenging.
Friday, June 20, 2008
Workin' in the Yard
So last weekend Jason and I decided (really it was more my decision) that we would finish the landscaping we started about a month ago. See... when we bought our house late last July, we were too busy painting and doing various things on the inside to worry about the outside. The outside has been our project this spring. The flower beds in the front had rocks instead of mulch... not my favorite. So the task of taking up the rock began. Now... this would have been much easier if whomever laid the rock in the first place would have picked up the mulch rather than just lay the rock on top of it!! It was a huge mess. Plus... the rock was going to be used someplace else.. so we couldn't just shovel it all up.. we had to pick the rocks out one by one.
Connor was a HUGE help!!! He kept to himself some of the time and actually fell asleep in his chair while we were working.
Here is a pic of the finished product!
Thursday, June 12, 2008
Milestones
I've debated about posting this...
While I've been watching and waiting for my son to reach milestones such as smiling and sitting up, this week I reached one for myself.
Today has been one year since the last time I harmed myself with NOT ONE slip up. I wish I could say the past year has been for myself. But unfortunately, my baby boy is the sole reason for my success. Hurting me hurts him, and I could never do anything to intentionally hurt him.
I recently finished reading Down Came the Rain by Brooke Shields and came across this quote:
While I've been watching and waiting for my son to reach milestones such as smiling and sitting up, this week I reached one for myself.
Today has been one year since the last time I harmed myself with NOT ONE slip up. I wish I could say the past year has been for myself. But unfortunately, my baby boy is the sole reason for my success. Hurting me hurts him, and I could never do anything to intentionally hurt him.
I recently finished reading Down Came the Rain by Brooke Shields and came across this quote:
Motherhood seems both selfish and selfless. She gives me purpose and makes me feel more special than I have ever felt, yet at the same time, I would die for her. As I recall the dark thoughts I had when I was really depressed and wanting to take my own life, I am moved by this distinction: I considered taking my own life, and now I would give it away if it were for her benefit.
If I could ever put into words my feelings for my baby boy and my situation... this would be pretty close. Last year was for him. This year is for me.
Wednesday, June 4, 2008
Contentment
I'm not sure I've ever been more content than I was last night...
After our volleyball game last night, Jason and I picked up Connor from Grandma Bernadette's and took him home for a bath. Once the bath and evening snack were through, I rocked him to sleep though it didn't take much effort. He was a tired boy! I walked into his room to lay him down and couldn't let go. I swayed back and forth with him in my arms and kissed his little forehead. He was so peaceful right then that I wanted to bottle up everything that was happening so I could have it another day. Maybe today when he's grumpy. Or in four years when he's trying my patience. How about in eighteen years when he's graduating high school. I wanted that feeling to last forever.
After our volleyball game last night, Jason and I picked up Connor from Grandma Bernadette's and took him home for a bath. Once the bath and evening snack were through, I rocked him to sleep though it didn't take much effort. He was a tired boy! I walked into his room to lay him down and couldn't let go. I swayed back and forth with him in my arms and kissed his little forehead. He was so peaceful right then that I wanted to bottle up everything that was happening so I could have it another day. Maybe today when he's grumpy. Or in four years when he's trying my patience. How about in eighteen years when he's graduating high school. I wanted that feeling to last forever.
